i wish...
    that keith had a job down here
    that our house would sell
    that we had our own place down here
it is getting frustrating that thinks aren't working out.  making me think, what if? i wasn't supposed to take this job? i am not supposed to stay in this job? we have to stay apart for a long time?
maybe i should not be here... maybe i projected my will and made it "God's will"